Its a wonder"

I just have been noticing some very interesting changes in my body , persona and above all my day to day life.

As a matter of fact i am still trying to put a finger as to what and how its happening. The good part of it is that all of the above is good positive changes. I feel good in me with all of it. Maybe its the jogging that i do. Yeah i run for an hour every three days of the week, i just love the feel of being outside.

Pitty where i live you hardly find an black people running or walkin outside to exercise their bodies. Well let there be a sunny day, tell you what you will find them at the Lake with their barbacue stands. That just shows the choices we take as people.

Does that phase me hell no!! i do my thing out there and by the end of the week i feel good and i will not let any individual low me on that. I have stopped taking all carbonated drinks if i have to go on the reason it will sure take 3 pages or so. Lets just say that shit! is not healthy. Well its been over a year going two years since i stopped consuming sodas, milk,eggs,cheese,orange juices unless its pure . When i say pure its got to be natural pure!!!

Its choices that we make as people that either give us good healthy life or kill us, we are what we eat. I know that this all works for Natty, might not be a thing for some next man.

I am happy at heart though i do go through those phases of missing my dad, i have a special place in my heart for my old man. I wish i could reverse the time that way i could tell him or talk to him on some different level. I learnt and will always learn through memory.

I am what i am because of what i believe, i will not fall for some cheezy shit at the expense of my intergrity.

Jah sons

"Realisation"

It's a wow to the mind and body after having gone through a deep phase of my life, i now see life and things from a very deep and obscure perspective.

Checking the everyday things, how people do, take, give,and void intrigues and stimulates a deeper thought in me. Why am i saying all of this? While in South Africa this past three weeks i was in the company of people that i love yes!!!! respect no doubt!! above all very intellectual. I mean the likes of my siblings who are forever conceptualising and finding the simpler and finer ways of living. I have much love for all my siblings despite the distance between us, everytime we come together that tranquility prevails.

They have fear for the Almighty, knowing that what they do is provided by him. They are thankful for what is theirs without having to obligarate their own intergrity on things that are not worth possesing. What is treasure to them is life and that happy healthy smile.

Then there is my brothers from my other mother, oh what can i say about these brothers??? Smart is an understatement word, the guys they turn a bark of a tree into a pencil without having to process it. Thats how they revolve their world. Its something that i can not even describe on this blog......All i know is that sitting with them you realise that what you thought you new is really nothing, well let me say this " sitting at that balcony which i am glad to have been part of during its launch 2 weeks ago in Melville, Johannesburg. Anyway the sitting alone pops up topics that are very general. But the end of the day the topics will have been scutinised and flossed not to mention giving a different look to what the topic meant before".

Now at this culture of Balcony you not only get educated but you are given the will power to converse. Thats what is lacking with most of us people that conversational will power. Its not that people are shy or secluxive, they just dont know what to say or respond about. The whole idea is to be open minded as nothing is kicked to the curb at this culture. Well let me say the Milk Stout goes well with these kind of talks, as for my sister Themsa she will take her Heineken. I have great respect for this lady. Very wise and when she talks you hear pride, confindece. The brothers i am talking about are Thembinkosi and Lindani.

Off course along the way i got to meet my Xhosa ital brethren Mzi! that brother speaks with eloqunce. I miss home right now i must say!!!!!. Hence the reason i never wanted to come back this time through. Now you see there is a missing link to the above two paragraphs......Mandla he was one person missing in this trip.

What i know is that the passing of my dad brought a whole new image and persona. He will always be missed this i know. Now i know that our hearts will be at ease knowing that he is no longer in pain.

I will pen off right here, even though i can still write and write.

Jah sons

"As i live"

Its been 7 days since we laid our dad to rest, as comforting as it might be that he is finally rested. The pain is much deep and cutting more than watching him deal with pain.

I never thought that the death of my father will create a change in my life, let alone the attitude. I have been waking up each day to face the reality of accepting death as natural a phenom as it can be. I sit and wonder what exactly was my dad thinking during those last minutes and seconds of his last breath??

I was never there to hear him tell me what he felt or what he wanted me to do, off-course he will have said "take care of your siblings".He cared so much about his kids never wanted anything to come or put sunder the bond created by his DNA.

Dad was one atticulate man, i have always and will put forth the knowledge he instilled in my mind and brain. One thing i miss hearing is my dad's eloqute english, he spoke english that was not only crisp but even hard for an english man to understand. He wrote journals for as long as i can remember, it has taken me time to understand some of the information due to the vocabulary, since i am his blood its come easy to break it down.All i am saying is that he was very learned!!!

I miss him more than i miss myself, he made this change pos sible for me and without his loving support i sure will not have gone and be where i am . May i grow to be like my dad, i know that i am not the only one who has lost parents, that sure make me no different to some next man. Guess what its all perceived and individualised per-person.I am my dad's son and will always protect my son and siblings from any harms way.

Thank you for the read up and comments, Khatiti you have followed each and every one of my blogs. Thank you kindly for all the wise and informative responses you leave on my blog.

Sons of Jah